I am dropping from SF and MBE. Feeling a little down and I would like to share it.
The last MBE was great, but it was the last. I am sure something else will emerge. A little sad about losing an event that introduced me to meeting and having fun with other rope people — Morph, Amu, Intrépida, Ho, AxeQueen, Casey, and so many others.
Montreal now has multiple people motivated to teach and share kinky knowledge. In a way sad, in a way happy. Diversity is not a bad thing. When you have been running alone for some time, a part of you sees others as competition, when they are not. I feel a need to renew something.
Rope — everywhere I look I see amazing skill in my own community, skill well beyond my own. Sad in a way. In the time when no one else was doing rope, you were on a pedestal. Now I look at people with only two years of experience doing amazing things, where my 20 years of experience cannot compete. My style is not that relevant anymore. I need to practice more.
Whips — I am a huge whip enthusiast, about the same as rope. This summer I met other whip people, more oriented to performance than to hitting people — those crazy vanilla folks. I was amazed to see how fast they grew in skill, outpacing even what I taught them. Now I am learning from them. Sad to learn not as fast. I need to practice more.
Photography — I cannot say I am a photographer; I am more a guy with a camera. I may have more lenses than some photographers, but sadly that adds nothing to composition or skill. I feel sad not to be better at one of my passions. This one requires learning more about the parts my brain does not naturally see.
Now I need some Netflix, Grey’s Anatomy, and chocolate.
Dropping is when you feel a little down because you had so much fun for a good stretch of time.
